angst

Jack: "..You were the on­ly one I saw when I closed my eyes"Lexi: "Then why wasn't I enough when they were open?

I had more to say,_ Sin said, still looking frustrated. __ut it doesn__ come out right when I try. I always say the wrong things.__oyd nodded but he was so caught by their proximity, by the green of Sin__ eyes, that at first he struggled with his own words.__t__ alright,_ he said at last. __s long you don__ hate me, it__ enough.___hat is not enough,_ Sin growled. __ot by a goddamn long shot. You just have no idea, Boyd. No fucking clue.___bout what?___verything. Why I acted the way I did_Why I was so pissed off. It will never make any sense to you because I don__ know how to explain.___o try,_ Boyd pressed. __lease.___ don__ know how.

Viola to Duke Orsino: 'I'll do my best To woo your lady.'[Aside.] 'Yet, a barful strife! Whoe'er I woo, myself would be his wife.

I've even purposely looked for stories full of exactly this kind of angst, because I love the emotion behind it so much.

When you__e tired of me,_ she said softly, precisely, __pollo will still be my brother. Will still be there for me._____l never tire of you,_ he said, knowing with every thread of his soul that he spoke the absolute truth.__hen prove it.__e knew what she asked with such an open and vulnerable face. Something within him shriveled and died... he__ been on the rack too long for a penance he wasn__ sure he could ever entirely pay. __ou know_ His voice was hoarse, the croaking of a dying man. He licked his lips. __ou know why I cannot.

When it comes to love, Princess, rules blur, and traditions fade,

They had lied, those who had extolled the virtues of love__ts pleasures, its sublimity__hose who had told her that it was beautiful and worthwhile.There was nothing beautiful abo

A jagged stone existed where her heart had been.

I find some small, twisted comfort in thinking that perhaps we used each other. Him, for a glimpse into what it would be like to live a life entirely different from the one he'd been raised to desire, and me for the steady diet of angst and emotional damage that seemed to make me better, sharper, like a sword against a whetstone.I was his intellectual escape from a long parade of pretty, empty girls... and he was my drug of choice -- unhealthy, probably lethal, but ultimately so addictive it was hard to turn away.The problem, of course, with this theory of mutual exploitation, is that it is the deepest of lies. There was nothing equal or mutual about the way we used each other. I barely scratched his surface while he sliced me limb from limb.There's no comfort in that. None at all.

I see how it is,_ I snapped. __ou were all in favor of me breaking the tattoo and thinking on my own__ut that__ only okay if it__ convenient for you, huh? Just like your __oving from afar_ only works if you don__ have an opportunity to get your hands all over me. And your lips. And_._._. stuff.__drian rarely got mad, and I wouldn__ quite say he was now. But he was definitely exasperated. __re you seriously in this much self-denial, Sydney? Like do you actually believe yourself when you say you don__ feel anything? Especially after what__ been happening between us?___othing__ happening between us,_ I said automatically. __hysical attraction isn__ the same as love. You of all people should know that.___uch,_ he said. His expression hadn__ changed, but I saw hurt in his eyes. I__ wounded him. __s that what bothers you? My past? That maybe I__ an expert in an area you aren__?___ne I__ sure you__ just love to educate me in. One more girl to add to your list of conquests.__e was speechless for a few moments and then held up one finger. __irst, I don__ have a list._ Another finger, __econd, if I did have a list, I could find someone a hell of lot less frustrating to add to it._ For the third finger, he leaned toward me. __nd finally, I know that you know you__e no conquest, so don__ act like you seriously think that. You and I have been through too much together. We__e too close, too connected. I wasn__ that crazy on spirit when I said you__e my flame in the dark. We chase away the shadows around each other. Our backgrounds don__ matter. What we have is bigger than that. I love you, and beneath all that logic, calculation, and superstition, I know you love me too. Running away and fleeing all your problems isn__ going to change that. You__e just going to end up scared and confused.___ already feel that way,_ I said quietly.Adrian moved back and leaned into his seat, looking tired. __ell, that__ the most accurate thing you__e said so far.__ grabbed the basket and jerked open the car door. Without another word, I stormed off, refusing to look back in case he saw the tears that had inexplicably appeared in my eyes. Only, I wasn__ sure exactly which part of our conversation I was most upset about.

Not your distress. Never that. I loved_ I loved being there. Next to you. The pile of limbs that was Us. Together in the same bed. Even if it meant waking up with a few new bruises.

I could be the ceaseless mist that fogs your colourless eyes when you're lost in your universes.

Do you know what I see in you now? The usual aura. A steady golden yellow, healthy and strong, with spikes of purple here and there. But when I do this. . . .__e rested a hand on my hip, and my whole body tensed up. That hand moved around my hip, slipping under my shirt to rest on the small of my back. My skin burned where he touched me, and the places that were untouched longed for that heat.. The colors deepen, it burns more intensely, the purple increases. Why? Why, Sydney?_ He used that hand on me to pull me closer. __hy do you react that way if I don__ mean anything to you?_ There was a desperation in his voice, and it was legitimate.

Yes. I rememb

The way he looks at me makes me ache, but it isn__ fair. He hurt me first. He caused this ache from the start. This inside out, churning pain that feels mental and physical now.I fiddle with my hands, peering up at him again, and all I can think is, God, I wish he__ stop staring at me like that.

Was it all in my head? A Lunar trick?__er stomach twisted. __o._ She shook her head, fervently. How to explain that she hadn__ had the gift before? That she couldn__ have used it against him? __ would never lie___he words faded. She had lied. Everything he knew about her had been a lie.____ so sorry,_ she finished, the words falling lamely in the open air.Kai peeled his eyes away, finding some place of resignation off in the glistening garden. __ou__e even more painful to look at than she is.

The person she liked best didn't like her enough to want more of her, and she didn't want to pretend that wasn't awful.

My chest ached, my body speaking a language my head didn't quite understand.