addiction

Addicts don't like when you tell them they are all the same. Of course not. Who would? But to me, addicts are like actresses, who all audition for the same role in a horror movie. It doesn't matter how they got to the audition. It doesn't matter how or where they grew up, once they get to the audition, all the actresses act in the same way and read the same lines. They all become the same character.

It's probably weird to think about an addiction like it's a sentient being, but that's how it feels. Like it's something living inside you. Something you can't get rid of because killing it means killing you.

And so, wish becomes pang; the crave, an ache; pleasure, pain. Losing all its pleasure, anticipation cuts the opposite direction and becomes merely a constant, painful reminder of what they__e lost, forever.

Sometimes being a nice person is all about knowing when to be an asshole.

The moment sex ceases to be a servant it becomes a tyrant.

When she walks in that first Monday, of course I am awake - I am always up these days - I decide to lay it down. __ook_, I say, __ snort Ritalin. That__ what I do. I snort it all day long. I crush up the pills and inhale them like cocaine. I__ up to about forty a day. I can__ stop. I am planning to get help, to check into rehab or something like that, as soon as this book is finished. In the meantime, I can__ stop, and I am not going to._ She looks at me impassively. __ don__ care what you think about it. So you have a choice. I can sit here and do it in front of you, or I can keep running into the bathroom so you don__ have to see. Either way, it__ going to happen, so it__ just about how bad it__ going to make you feel to watch.__he doesn__ seem to know what to say. She stares. I think she is going to cry. I think she wants to give me a hug, maybe, but there is an invisible cage, a delicate netting of glass, an ice sculpture surrounding me that no one can walk through. I__ cold. I__e frozen into someone who just can__ be touched. I dare you to try.

What is addiction, really? It is a sign, a signal, a symptom of distress. It is a language that tells us about a plight that must be understood.

After all, addiction is just the last stage of consumerism.

She began to realize some decisions cannot be undone no matter how hard you try.

I recovered from recovering so no longer celebrate not doing bad things to defend myself as good. I added new bad for good measure.

For the painful essence of withdrawal does not reside in the present suffering it brings - withdrawal is painless on the level of the immediate moment - but in the prospect of suffering to come, the rich future that one can imagine one's torture enjoying.

From food addiction to food serenity - freedom tastes great!

Addiction is a bargain with the cosmos: only stay time, and I'll remain in this holding pattern, too. The uncrossable gap between now and the past is given tangible form and conquered, daily, in the real but bridgeable gap between what I need and what I can get. Addiction creates a god so that time will stop--why all gods are created. God might be another story.

addiction is an insidious disease that's always lurking nearby like a snake ready to strike.

Your only vice is yourself. The worst of all. The really incurable one.

When my pals in high school were starting to drink, it always looked unappealing to me. I would be at a big party and see one of the popular girls or football players completely wasted and puking and acting a fool, and think to myself, There__ nothing cool about that. I never wanted to be that out of control.

With addiction, a client__ fears can be ripened into some very pleasing fruit: Irritability, suspiciousness, isolation, paranoia, and finally on to that grand banana __he fear of Fear itself.

If you can stop using substance or stop your addictive behavior for extended periods of time without craving, you are not dependent. You are dependent only if you can't stop without physical or psychological distress (you have unpleasant physical and/or psychological withdrawal symptoms) or if you stop and then relapse.