Tammara Webber

We were encouraged to propose safetyprevention suggestions, and write them all down_ locking doors, walking or exercising with a friend, wearing shoes that don__ hinder running. Erin__ suggestion of __void assholes_ was popular.

My mother always pouted that it was actually her paintings and not her charm, her beauty or her sass that made him fall in love with her. He'd always insisted that it was definitely her sass. I knew the truth. He fell for all those things, and when she died, it was like someone had extinguished the sun, and he had nothing left to orbit.

There are a million ways to lose someone you love.

It isn't fair how I doubt him, and I wonder if he'll ever gather that my loss of faith extends further than I'd ever known it would, severing lines of trust and leveling my confidence like a city-flattening tornado.

The little kids by the water threw their hands in the air and squealed, chasing each other in circles.It was hard to believe that I__ ever been that small. That young. That happy and clueless. They hadpain ahead. Heartbreak. Loss. They didn__ know and I didn__ want them to _ but at the same time, Ihated that I hadn__ known. I__ taken everything for granted _ my mother, my friends in Alexandria,playing hockey. I dreamed about the future because that__ what people persuade you to do whenyou__e a kid, but that__ the biggest lie of all _ that you can plan. Reality is, you have no fucking cluewhat__ coming and neither do they

The truth was, he now belonged only to my past, and it was time I begin to accept it, as much as it hurt to do so.

Not stupid. Overly trusting, maybe, but that reflects on his lack of trustworthiness, not on your intelligence.

I was so afraid of wanting too much that I couldn't trust her handing me a shot at getting it. I don't want to be that senselessly fearful ever again.

Lucas: I wanted to talk to you after class, but you disappeared.Me: I have another class right after. One of those profs who stops talking, stares at you and waits until you get to your seat if you're late.Lucas: I would probably just walk to my seat even slower. ;)

She shuddered. __hat is it with slobbery kissers? Are they trying to drown us in spit? I mean, Jesus, swallow every now and then.

I had become Harry Potter. Except I was thirteen and not magic, and my destiny, whatever it was, held no profound purpose.

But girls willing to share your bed don't equal girls willing to put up with your random crap moods, listen to your exhaustive legal opinions, or support your life's goals the way someone who loves you would.

I had to stop linking every single thing that happened to me with Kennedy. Realization dawned then, that he was still my default. Over the past three years, we__ become each other__ habit. And though he__ broken his habit of me when he walked away, I__ not broken my habit of him. I was still tethering him to my present, to my future. The truth was, he now belonged only to my past, and it was time I began to accept it, as much as it hurt to do so.

Love is not the absence of logicbut logic examined and recalculatedheated and curved to fitinside the contours of the heart

Oh No! My wings are effed up!

Tonight I want to stand on the side of a cliff and look down, dare the wind to gust and knock me off. Everyone thinks that falling to your death is the worst thing that can happen. But that__ a lie. The worst thing is to be alive for no reason.

I__e been thinking about that proof I spoke of last time _ that you__e where you__e supposed to be. And it occurred to me, can you prove you__ be better off somewhere else? If you__ have left the state, your relationship would have ended still. Maybe you__ have even blamed yourself, not knowing that it was doomed because of him, either way. Instead, you__e here. You got dumped, skipped class, and met the best econ tutor at the university! Who knows, maybe I__l make you fall in love with economics.

I try to be rational and suppress the hope that this is for real, but hope has a way of closing its eyes to reason and it just keeps growing._