teen-love

It hurts to get things out in the open, but it hurts even more not to.

He was acting like our kiss had broken him, and his reaction was breaking me.

I want to say that yes, it was worth it; that I could suffer through pain and torture for her and go through a lot more than what Puck and his friends are capable of, and I can do it for all of eternity; suffer, until she realizes how much I love her. But she__ gone before I can say any of it. I wait till she__ left.And then I reach for my wallet.Hidden inside one of the flaps is a piece of paper that barely conceals a razorblade. Its frayed edges still have my blood on them. The blood is from the previous cuts I__e made and I carry it around like a trophy, like Dexter carries around his victims_ blood on slides. I use that blade to give myself a cut and it starts bleeding. Right away, it feels as though the pressure that has been building inside me ever since that confrontation with Puck is lifted. I feel free again.

I__ scared that you__l make me love you_and then you__l leave me.

You are a blue rose, Letti. It__ almost impossible that you exist amongst the other roses but you do. You bring wonder to those who are lucky enough to find you. The blue rose is lonely, lost and awaits someone special to believe in them; the same feeling I got from you the day we met. Blue roses are incomprehensible and mysterious. And so are you.

My brain was so noisy and opinionated that it drowned out my heart.

You are a blue rose, Letti. Itâ__s almost impossible that you exist amongst the other roses but you do. You bring wonder to those who are lucky enough to find you. The blue rose is lonely, lost and awaits someone special to believe in them; the same feeling I got from you the day we met. Blue roses are incomprehensible and mysterious. And so are you.

He holds his hand out for me to see it like he__ cradling something delicate or breakable, an egg or like, his heart.

They drove back to her house in silence. Terrance pulled the car into the driveway and turned off the engine. Turning toward her, he said, __hadejah, I really like you a lot and I don__ want to hurt you. But I__ not a virgin and I like to have sex. If we__e going to keep seeing each other, you__e got to make a decision, because if I can__ get it from you I__l get it from someone else._ He looked her straight in her tear-filled eyes. __ need to know whether to get a room for after the concert. Let me know tomorrow._ He reached over and opened her door. Khadejah didn__ say a word. She got out of the car and went into the house.Terrance sat there for a few minutes wondering if he was being fair. She had to know that he was having sex. Damn, I should feel honored that she__ still a virgin, he thought. Shit, I__l just have my cake and eat it, too.Ten minutes later, Terrance was knocking on Adrienne__ door. __ey, can I come in?

We love each other. You love me, you do._ His eyes beseech me to believe it, to remember it, to feel it.

Neither of us fit in, so instead we fit together.

Answer me one thing,_ she says in a rigidly controlled voice. __o you love Logan?__erhaps I should lie, but in that moment, after what I__e just witnessed, I__ incapable of expressing anything but the truth of what__ in my heart. __ith all my heart,_ I sob.

All I can think about is how I wanted to share those firsts with Logan and how I never knew it was an impossibility because it had already been taken away from me.

Logan must survive. That is the only truth. The only goal. My sole mission.

And I wanted Jordan, because if he wanted me back it would mean I wasn't ordinary. A guy like him wouldn't settle for that.

i love you Ivy. I'll never stop loving you." "I prayed for one more chance to reach you," he said, "to tell you how much I love you and to tell you to keep on loving. Someone else was meant for you,Ivy, and you were meant for someone else.

And his kisses.God, his lips feel like they were custom made to fit perfectly against mine.He alternates between soft and sweet, hard and hungry. And I get it.Though we__e shared plenty of kisses, this one is different. It__ like discovering a lake in the middle of a desert. Or waking up on Christmas morning to a glistening blanket of show. The equivalent of winning the lottery. And though it redefines the __heese_ in cheesiness, that__ what it feels like to have Logan back in my life, back in my arms, when I thought he was lost to me forever.Being with him means more than I can express. It__ everything. He__ everything. I start and end with him.

I'm a pretty forgetful guy, but everything she says, I remember. I remember what colour her hair ribbon was when we met on the first day of fifth grade. I remember that she loves orchids because they look delicate but aren't, really. From a single postcard she sent me when traveling with her family two summers ago. I remember what my name looks like in her handwriting.