depresion

I have just now come from a party where I was its life and soul; witticisms streamed from my lips, everyone laughed and admired me, but I went away _ yes, the dash should be as long as the radius of the earth's orbit ___________ and wanted to shoot myself.

I wrote when I did not know life;now that I know life, I have no more to say.

..because never in my life have I ever been picked when there was another alternative.

It's when you sit alone with your thoughts that you begin to miss what you have left behind. That is when the tears start. That is when you feel so down. That is when you are the most vulnerable.But we can't change what is done. We can only hope that the fallout is not nuclear.

..the thing about depression. When I feel it deeply, I don__ want to let it go. Itbecomes a comfort. I want to cloak myself under its heavy weight and breathe it into my lungs. I wantto nurture it, grow it, cultivate it. It__ mine. I want to check out with it, drift asleep wrapped in itsarms and not wake up for a long, long time.

Idealism + Inaction = Depression