Kim Holden

Thank you._ I__e said thank you thousands of times in my life. Most of the time I mean it to some degree. There are times when I__e said it and felt the gratitude behind the words wholeheartedly, but I don__ think I ever understood what those two words truly meant until this very moment. Now I think I need a new phrase because thank you is insufficient in this situation.

Do you know what it's like to be blessed with someone so special, to love them so much it hurts, and then have them taken from you forever?

I'm crying again. I cry so often now that sometimes I don't even realize it until the tears are already streaming down my cheeks.

Trust and my heart are linked. If I trust you it means I've let you into my heart. And I trust you not to hurt me. The pinnacle of trust, the trust I've never afforded to anyone, is the scariest: true love.

Misery loves companyTragically

Hiding and waitingFor the worst Or the end

I don__ want to be my limitations. I don__ want to be my pain. I don__ want to be my embarrassment.

the person you__e always wanted to be. Some days your heart will be in it, and some days you__l fake it, but eventually it will become a habit and without thinking about it, you will be changed anew. A new attitude. A new outlook. A new perspective. The human mind is a wonderful thing to grant us that kind of change.

I have too much doubt. It__ the bastard child of fear. I hate fear. So doubt sidles up next to determination in my heart. It doesn__ outweigh it. They coexist.

A hug is a display of love that begins on the physical end of the spectrum but bleeds into the emotional end of the spectrum if you let it, if you give into it. It__ the most innocent, pure form of physical human connection there is. It only takes two willing people, who don__ even have to know each other, to participate. Two willing people who want that exchange. It__ so easy, but there are people who never get them. People who never get them,_ she repeats softly, it__ a confession.

And guilt is heavy, like an anchor holding me in place and hindering any and all advancement.

Never misconceive that which is real

There should always be another kissAnd another after that

The mouth is a magnificent tool to communicate intimacy _ kissing, licking, sucking, nipping _ it's screaming, I'm so fucking into you, without saying a word.

Denial can be beautifulBut only when you're a fantastic liar

Genetics doesn__ ensure love, or even like, time and effort do. You don__ give them your time, and you don__ show them effort

Sometimes I__ irrational, I know I am, but even irrational thought feels very, very real when you__e in the middle of shit.

Because that__ what parents do, without even thinking about it, that__ what parents do. They fill their children with love and understanding and compassion and knowledge so that when they__e adults no one can extinguish them. They__l burn so bright they can__ be brought down.