the-edge-of-never

I don__ know what I__ doing, or where I__ going, but I do know that I want to do whatever it is and get there soon.

It__ not only about sadness. In truth, sadness really has little to do with it. Depression is pain in its purest form and I would do anything to be able to feel an emotion again. Any emotion at all. Pain hurts, but pain that__ so powerful that you can__ feel anything anymore, that__ when you start to feel like you__e going crazy.

I__ not a follower. I never have been. But I__l definitely become someone I__ not for a few hours if it__l make me blend in rather than make me a blatant eye sore and draw attention.

I__ starting to get used to this feeling of not caring about anything.

I say that I'm not into you like that, Camryn, because..," he pauses, searching my face, looking at my lips for a moment as if deciding whether or not he should kiss them again, "...because you're not the girl I could only sleep with once.

There was no logic or any sense of purpose except that I knew I had to do something other than what I was doing, or I might not make it through this.

His face spreads into a warm smile. __s a matter of fact, no, I have never slept under the stars _ are you gettin_ all romantic on me, Camryn Bennett?_ He looks at me with a playful sideward stare.