caroline

Ask yourself something. Have you ever thought about why guys want you gone the next day? It__ not because they__e got things to do, though I__ sure there are a few assholes who think like that, either because they repeated the folly so often they learned to bury the guilt or because they didn__ have a conscience to begin with but, truthfully, it__ because they can__ stand to look at the reason they feel a hole in their chest. They don__ like reminders of who helped put that sick feeling in the pits of their stomachs. As long as they had a decent mama, the guilt is always substantial. Always. If they say differently, they__e liars." - Spencer Blackwell, GREED

Maybe I was supposed to hate Caroline Mathers or something because she__ been with Augustus, but I didn__. I couldn__ see her very clearly amid all the tributes, but there didn__ seem to be much to hate. She seemed to be mostly a professional sick person, like me, which made me worry that when I died they__ have nothing to say about me except that I fought heroically, as if the only thing I__ ever done was Have Cancer.

The problem with books is that they end. They seduce you.[_]You turn the page and there is nothing.

And now it is time for my story to end, because we have finally reached the beginning.

Death doesn't happen instantly. For a little while, you hover around your body, confused. What you want more than anything is to go home, to be safe, to know you're okay. But my life was over.