a-court-of-mist-and-fury

When you spend so long trapped in darkness, you find that the darkness begins to stare back.

There are different kinds of darkness,_ Rhys said. I kept my eyes shut. __here is the darkness that frightens, the darkness that soothes, the darkness that is restful._ I pictured each. __here is the darkness of lovers, and the darkness of assassins. It becomes what the bearer wishes it to be, needs it to be. It is not wholly bad or good.

There are good days and hard days for me. Don't let the hard days win ~Mor ~A Court of Mist and Fury

For him, I had done this-for him I'd gladly wrecked myself and my immortal soul. And now I had an eternity to live with it.

Maybe I'd always been broken and dark inside. Maybe someone who've been born whole and good would have put down the ash dagger and embraced death rather than what lay before me.

And I wondered if love was too weak a word for what he felt, what he__ done for me. For what I felt for him.

Amren,_ Rhys drawled, __ends her regards. And as for this one _ _ I tried not to flinch away from meeting his stare. __he__ mine,_ he said quietly, but viciously enough that Devlon and his warriors nearby heard. __nd if any of you lay a hand on her, you lose that hand. And then you lose your head._ I tried not to shiver, as Cassian and Mor showed no reaction at all. __nd once Feyre is done killing you,_ Rhys smirked, __hen I__l grind your bones to dust.

It was easier to not have to explain, anyway. To not have to tell him that though I'd freed him, saved his people and all of Prythian from Amarantha... I'd broken myself apart. And I didn't think even eternity would be long enough to fix me.

It didn't excuse what he'd done. Even if he'd...saved me-I choked on the word-from having to refuse Tamlin. Having to explain.

Rhys gave no warning as he gripped my arm, snarling softly, and tore off my glove. His touch was like a brand, and I flinched, yielding a step, but he held firm until he'd gotten both gloves off. " I heard you begging someone, anyone, to rescue you, to get you out. I heard you say no." "I didn't say anything." He turned my bare hand over, his hold tightening as he examined the eye he'd tattooed. He tapped the pupil. Once. Twice. " I heard it loud and clear.

Was I interrupting? I thought it was over." Rhys gave me a smile dripping with venom. He knew-through that bond, through whatever magic was between us, he'd known I was about to say no. "At least Feyre seemed to think so.

And he will never know what it is to look up at the night sky and wish.

Many atrocities, have been done in the name of the greater good.