Ranata Suzuki

I raised you so high that every other man on earth is now doomed to live in your shadow.

I would have followed you to hell and back... if only you'd lead me back.

The only place I ever felt at home was with you. There isn__ a place for me anywhere anymore_ I__e been evicted.

I have poured my heart out _.And now I am empty.

He was both everything I could ever want_And nothing I could ever have_

I think perhaps I will always hold a candle for you _ even until it burns my hand.And when the light has long since gone _. I will be there in the darkness holding what remains, quite simply because I cannot let go.

Though these words will never find you, I hope that you knew I was thinking of you today_.. and that I was wishing you every happiness.Love Always,The girl you loved once.

When you experience loss, people say you__l move through the 5 stages of grief_.Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance_.. What they don__ tell you is that you__l cycle through them all every day.

The last time I felt alive _ I was looking into your eyes.Breathing your air_. touching your skin_ Saying goodbye_.The last time I felt alive_. I was dying.

It__ painful, loving someone from afar.Watching them _ from the outside.The once familiar elements of their life reduced to nothing more than occasional mentions in conversations and faces changing in photographs_..They exist to you now as nothing more than living proof that something can still hurt you _ with no contact at all.

I miss that feeling of connection.Knowing he was out there somewhere thinking about me at the same time I was thinking about him.

If you cannot hold me in your arms, then hold my memory in high regard.And if I cannot be in your life, then at least let me live in your heart.

I had someone once who made every day mean something.And now_. I am lost_.And nothing means anything anymore.

There is an ocean of silence between us_ and I am drowning in it.

_the sad part is, that I will probably end up loving you without you for much longer than I loved you when I knew you.Some people might find that strange.But the truth of it is that the amount of love you feel for someone and the impact they have on you as a person, is in no way relative to the amount of time you have known them.

I believe in love at first sight_But it__ not the first moment you lay eyes on a person, it__ the moment you first seethe person they truly are.

Your memory feels like home to me.So whenever my mind wanders, it always finds it__ way back to you.

Everybody wants their own little place in the world. And maybe mine is here_ Loving you from a distance_