new-me

I went into the new year loving myself in different ways, in a different possibility. It was then that I understood things I hadn__. It was then that I understood people I hadn__. We work in ways where sometimes we don__ align because our intersections lead us elsewhere. We find ourselves in rapids which lead to lightning, in beds that leave us homesick. We lust after the impetuous, in hopelessness, and sometimes in the reactive. We like things and people who are bad for us and that__ fine. It__ fine because it__ life. It happens. They exist. We exist. We all exist together in this world where nothing seems to make sense. Where everything is nothing but imaginary because it__ what we imagine it to be. Reality exists and it__ there, but life is what you make it. Your actions ask for it. How you exist is how you exist.We take every new year and give it a theme because we__e scared of how it could be. You change in the moment, not by years. You be to become and becoming is something which frightens people. Lead by example instead of letting the example lead you. Take this new year and find yourself in people who question it because questioning is how you gain from it.

Forgiveness is a transformative act because it asks you to be a more empathetic and compassionate person, thereby making you better than the person you were when you were first hurt.

Your love opened up a whole world that no amount of books or wisdom could ever do.

Why wait to forgive and let go only after you have sufficiently wallowed in your despair? Why not forgive and let go now?

In spite of the horror, in spite of the tragedy, in spite of the weeks of sleepless nights, I'm finally alive. I'm not pretending. I feel real. I'm not playing charades anymore. I wouldn't go back to the way I was for anything. I'm really like a different person. I'm where I am, and I'm making the most of it. I know I'm courageous now. I found out I had it in me to face this. _ Barbara