never-another-you

If I bother you so much, why did you let me kiss you again in that hospital? Is the reason to screw up my head more, to see if you still have the knack for it? Because congratulations Nell, you__e succeeded yet again.

I will never return home to Elham. I can__. To see her would crush me. I need to let her go now. And I need to move on. I__e come to realise that she was right. We were two completely different people, and we didn__ belong together. But I will never hold any regrets of what we had. It will always be a time of my life that was perfect. Goodbye sweet Nell.

Well, I did tell you I couldn__ give you a thing. Maybe you__e just realised that Alistair can give the god damn world, and the pleasure of kissing his shiny slap-head every day!

So, let__ make this a little interesting_ a race. If I win, then you have to polish every saddle and strap of leather of Byron__, including all brasses and buckles. Oh, and every one of my many pairs of boots.___nd if I win?_ I asked, already aware of what I wanted.__hat would you like Jack_ name it?___ kiss.__he flushed red. __ine. Count of three- one- two_.__he wouldn__ even give me that three. She was off.

Their marriage was cold and tedious. Formal and unloving. Stale even. She never had any regrets like this with Jack. With Jack, a rainy day would be cheerful.

I gripped hold of that scarf like my life depended on it. Still to this day I inhale it every night, despite what has happened over the years. I don__ blame her now for not waiting. For all she knew, I wouldn__ return. But to marry him, god, she could have done so much better.