meltdown

But Hannah's friend didn__ understand the volatile balancing act between art and sanity, that the act of creation was like walking a tightrope during an earthquake. She didn__ understand Hannah__ stupid need for validation, or that the size of the audience increased the stakes and multiplied the fear. She didn__ understand that creativity was dangerous, that, yes, there were some people who could stand before a canvas, paint a sunset that would bring the world to its knees, and return to their loved ones as a complete person who didn__ hurt, didn__ cry, didn__ spill blood to appease the host of fickle muses. But Hannah did. Hannah__ best ideas__ometimes her only ideas__ere buried beneath the skin.

Sometimes it takes a meltdown to cool down.

Life-transforming ideas have always come to me through books._ - Bell Hooks