intrusive-thoughts

Yes, I am a prisoner of sorts, but my prison isn't the house. It's my own thoughts that lock me up!

What daily life is like for __ multiple_ Imagine that you have periods of __ost time._ You may find writings or drawings which you must have done, but do not remember producing. Perhaps you find child-sized clothing or toys in your home but have no children. You might also hear voices or babies crying in your head. Imagine that you can never predict when you will be able to have certain knowledge or social skills, and your emotions and your energy level seem to change at the drop of a hat, and for no apparent reason. You cannot understand why you feel what you feel, and, if you are in therapy, you cannot explore those feelings when asked. Your life feels disjointed and often confusing. It is a frightening experience. It feels out of control, and you probably think you are going crazy. That is what it is like to be multiple, and all of it is experienced by the ANPs. A multiple may also experience very concrete problems, even life-threatening ones.

He tried to sleep, but his head was filled with the faces of lunatics, their palsied hands, their shattered eyes.

I__e gotta stop thinking I know what other people think, cause most of __hat other people think_ is something I__ making up. So I should just let them have their experience, I__l have my experience and not pretend to know, and just get past that. [I think that] is a major obstacle: manifesting that insecurity, that fear. Believing the audience in your head as opposed to what__ really going on in the world__ot responding to the one I__ making up, which is always going to judge me harder than the real one.