insider

There__ a writer for you,_ he said. __nows everything and at the same time he knows nothing._ [narrator]It was my first inkling that he was a writer. And while I like writers__ecause if you ask a writer anything you usually get an answer__till it belittled him in my eyes. Writers aren__ people exactly. Or, if they__e any good, they__e a whole lot of people trying so hard to be one person. It__ like actors, who try so pathetically not to look in mirrors. Who lean backward trying__nly to see their faces in the reflecting chandeliers.

I am not an outsider. I am an insider who discovered that everyone else had gone out.