Richey Edwards

I have a very childlike rage, and a very childlike loneliness.

It__ all about self-discipline. Like, self-obsession is connected completely with self-loathing, and it__ the same with, if you__e got a weight problem. It__ all about_ finding some worth in yourself, knowing that you__e got the discipline to do it, and knowing that other people maybe can__ do it. And it__ also, I think, really connected to the fact that you almost feel, like, silent, you have no voice, you__e mute, there__ just no, you__e got no option. Even if you could express yourself nobody would listen anyway. Things that go on inside you, there__ no other way to get rid of them.

I think we__e romantic people in some ways, but when it comes to relationships it__ not a question of __an you trust another human being?_, so much as a question of trusting yourself. The animalistic nature of man seems to mean that you__e bound to find another people physically attractive. And there__ something dishonest about shutting those feelings off - it seems puritanical to deny yourself that. The idea of sin is still so widely pervading.

People say to the mentally ill, __ou know so many people think the world of you._ But when they don__ like themselves they don__ notice anything. They don__ care about what people think of them. When you hate yourself, whatever people say it doesn__ make sense. __hy do they like me? Why do they care about me?_ Because you don__ care about yourself at all.