Mac McClelland

A lot of people don__ heal, and it manifests in a lot of different ways throughout their lives,_ she said once. __ecause when trauma doesn__ get to work itself through your system, your system idles at a heightened state, and so getting more really intense input calms your system down._ Which is why, Meredith said, __ lot of folks who__e survived trauma end up being really calm in crisis and freaking out in everyday life.

I could have lived like that. For a long time. People do it. Like a piece of cardboard, walking around tall and flat in the world, without nerve endings, sinews stiff enough to keep any weakness they__e holding safely twined up. It keeps the good things from getting in, too. But you barely register emptiness when you only have two dimensions. People do it, keep their constriction mostly intact; except for the moments when they don't.