"
Do you even feel anything, Chad? Will you for once stop walking around, all in control and f'ing calm? Do you have any idea what you all have done. I lost everything, Chad. Everything, when Kyle died. I lost myself. I had finally begun to build a new life with new friends. With people I thought cared about me. I have started to be just a little bit happy again. Was it too much to ask? Did I ask for too much by just wanting to have a little bit of a life again? Now, it__ all screwed up again and you walk around here like you don__ feel anything about what__ happened.__had spun around, and for only the second time since she__ known him, she saw the flash of anger so fierce her breath caught in her throat and she took an involuntary step back, away from him. Jennie knew Chad would never hurt her on purpose, but the anger rolling off of him was palpable. It seemed to force her backwards as if it had a life of its own, a power of its own.__ot feel anything, Jennie? Are you f'ing kidding me? I walk around here every day and I ache every f'ing minute I__ with you. I__ so twisted up with loving you and hating you, I can__ breathe. I can__ keep my hands off you, but I can__ let myself kiss you because I might lose myself in you. I can__ make love to you because I__ afraid you__l pretend I__ him. I know you want his arms around you, not mine. I know you want it to be his baby inside you, not mine. And I know you can__ love me back, no matter what I do, because you__e still so in love with your husband, you can__ even begin to see me.__had didn__ stop and Jennie didn__ try to stop him.__nd every day, I have to sit here and wonder how I__l be a part of my baby__ life. I wonder if you__l let me be in the delivery room, if you__l let me help you name the baby. I wonder how much money I__ have to offer the people who live across the street from you to get them to sell me their house, just so I can see my child grow up. If you__l let me..._ Chad stopped as if he__ run out of steam.They stood in uneasy silence for a long time before Chad spoke again. He sounded worn out and bitter and angry, mirroring Jennie__ chaos of emotions.__m I feeling anything? Yeah. I__ feeling some f'ing sh**, Jen.
