Daria Snadowsky

I can live without a boy. So why does it feel like I'm going to die?

Once you've ridden the roller coaster, the Ferris wheel's kinda restricting.

I just wouldn__ want to hook up with a guy unless I really, really like him, and in myexperience all boys can be classified as either assholes or bores, unless they__e both.Maybe it__ a blessing, because the last thing I need is relationship drama to sidetrack me from my grades.

Please don__ hate you??!! I hate that I love you. Loving you made me waste a year of my life. Lovingyou made me be passionate about nothing but you. Loving you made me take risks I never would haveotherwise. Loving you made me give it up to you. Loving you made me neglect my parents and Amy.Loving you made me not care that my grandma just died. Loving you made me turn out bitter andhopeless like her. Loving you made me hate myself for being dumped by you. Loving you made medeluded, irrational, inconsiderate, and a liar. And because I love you, you__e always going to haunt me.

I used to think all that game playing was par for the course and even kind of exciting. It just felt logical to pursue a boy the same way I applied to college__y expending exorbitant time and energy showing what a great catch I am and what a perfect match we__ be, so that after a lengthy waiting period I might get accepted. But now the idea of reliving any version of that charade seems like hell.

It__ like my entire conscious state has been reduced to this toxic blend of hope and uncertainty. I hate that I have to act cool and almost pretend I don__ like him when in fact I do, because, God forbid, I might come across as desperate for affection or a little clingy, which everyone should know are perfectly natural human behaviors, after all. Ugh!

I__e been so caught up with mapping out a picture-perfect __orever_ that I__ completely neglecting my present, which I have far more control over anyway.

I__ positive I wouldn__ consider having sex with Guy if I hadn__ already had sex beforehand. I always knew I wanted my first time to be with someone I loved and who loved me, which it was . . . but shouldn__ I want that for everytime? I disagree with what Amy said about how once you go all the way, you can__ go back to __verything but._ But now that I have done it, it doesn__ seem nearly as big a deal to do it again.

It__ so evident to me now that just because someone is a great guy doesn__ guarantee we__l make a great couple, no matter how much I work at it and want it.

When presented with a member of the opposite sex, some of us get numbers and some of us throw up.

I hate how it__ so much easier to be open and straightforward to a computer screen than to an actual person.

How is it that mankind can engineer condoms to prevent pregnancy and STDs and not be able to invent some sort of emotional safeguard? Is it even possible to abstain from falling in love?

Please don__ hate you??!! I hate that I love you. Loving you made me waste a year of my life. Loving you made me be passionate about nothing but you. Loving you made me take risks I never would have otherwise. Loving you made me give it up to you. Loving you made me neglect my parents and Amy. Loving you made me not care that my grandma just died. Loving you made me turn out bitter and hopeless like her. Loving you made me hate myself for being dumped by you. Loving you made me deluded, irrational, inconsiderate, and a liar. And because I love you, you__e always going to hau

A month ago it would have been my dream just to be in his bedroom watching a movie, but now it__ torture because I want so much more. It__ like my entire conscious state has been reduced to this toxic blend of hope and uncertainty. I hate that I have to act cool and almost pretend I don__ like him when in fact I do, because, God forbid, I come across as desperate for attention or a little clingy, which everyone should know are perfectly natural human behaviors, after all. Ugh!