Christy Heron

Thank god for Vegas. Seriously.A lobotomy wasn__ as effective as a weekend three hours of Red Bull away (from LA, not Pismo) where I wore the thinnest pinned stilettos, gambled like a sweaty degenerate mobster in black loafers, drank like Amy Winehouse and Charles Bukowski__ baby, and snorted throat-dripping lines of coke in a Hard Rock Hotel bathroom with four new best friends. I__ giddily rub off any one of those from the to-do list I wrote in eyeliner on my hotel bathroom mirror.

February 2009 January 4. January 4. January 4. I rubbed the paper on my red calendar. I cried into the little box, into the last day we had sex.I was a tornado. I puked hurricanes. I was Jodi Arias. There were no more tears for him. Swirling eddies of vodka, pills, fattening food, and tears. Vortexes corralled other vortexes. They joined forces with the eyes of other storms far out into the Gulf, and Atlantic, and castrated my heart first, then everything below the neck. Fuck the heart; my brain was mauled into mush. He didn__ have a heart__nd possibly, neither did I. The heart had nothing to do with a whirlpool of circles and left and rights I navigated.