AVA.

oh, the heartbreakingly beautifultender weight of being human.

no one needs love from youmore than you need love from you.love yourself first,and you will always be in love.

you have outgrown this skin.stop trying to hold it in.stop trying to hold it together.let yourself break.

do not let anyone inuntil they love you so fiercely,you have no defense against their love.

there's always been a little sadness inside my happiness.i've never been able to separate the two.

i just want to be honest about my feelings without destroying everything.

and sadness clung to mebecause she did not knowhow to be alone.

remember you are capable of the most powerful thing in the universe.you are capable of love.

love yourself first,and you will always be in love.

you wanted it all to make senseand you wanted the most complicated answer,but the answer is simple.just be.

you giver of light.you lover of love.you beautifulbeautifulhuman beingyou.

i swallowed the syllables of your nameand i was full.

i know it all ends the same,but i was interested in seeinghow you would break my heart.

let your love cover me like skin.i want the whole world to see.

i wanted to destroy you.you are mine to ruin.something so beautifulshould only exist for me.

i took it off.i did not want to carry it with me anymore.

i am awake and aliveand swollen and heavywith love.

the opening,the breaking,the falling apartis always so quick.the hurting,the healing,the putting back togetheris always too long.