She stared at Raven in a long second of shocked silence, before sagging to the floor.
And in this moment of pale dawn in the hours before we leave California, I finally realize what has been the hardest thing for me about Matt__ death. It isn__ that I lost a brother, like Frankie, or a son, like Aunt Jayne and Uncle Red. The hardest thing is that I__l never know exactly what I lost, how much it should hurt, how long I should keep thinking about him. He took that mystery with him when he died, and a hundred thousand one-sided letters in my journal wouldn__ have brought me any closer to the truth than I was the night I pressed my fingers to the sea glass he wore around his neck and kissed him back. For over a year, the letters were my only connection to him; the only evidence that I didn__ imagine our brief time as other. When I first saw my journal helplessly floating on the waves, I felt a loss so immediate and overwhelming it was like being back in the hospital lobby when the doctor told us they couldn__ fix him. One minute, the journal was in my hands, soft and familiar and real; the next minute, it was gone. Just like Matt. And just like Matt, I need to let it go.
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And in this moment of pale dawn in the hours before we leave California, I finally realize what has been the hardest thing for me about Matt__ death. It isn__ that I lost a brother, like Frankie, or a son, like Aunt Jayne and Uncle Red. The hardest thing is that I__l never know exactly what I lost, how much it should hurt, how long I should keep thinking about him. He took that mystery with him when he died, and a hundred thousand one-sided letters in my journal wouldn__ have brought me any closer to the truth than I was the night I pressed my fingers to the sea glass he wore around his neck and kissed him back. For over a year, the letters were my only connection to him; the only evidence that I didn__ imagine our brief time as other. When I first saw my journal helplessly floating on the waves, I felt a loss so immediate and overwhelming it was like being back in the hospital lobby when the doctor told us they couldn__ fix him. One minute, the journal was in my hands, soft and familiar and real; the next minute, it was gone. Just like Matt. And just like Matt, I need to let it go.
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