missing-someone

how anxiously I yearned for those I had forsaken.

and now i am back in the grey world where it tastes like plastic, the monotony is buzzing through my jaws and the boredom is pulling my hair.

I shake my head. __ know,_ I reply. __ou are searching for her too.__e stand for a moment, staring out at the stars mirrored in the calm seas. I know why Magiano doesn__ look at me. I remind him too much of her.____ sorry,_ I whisper, after a long pause.__on__ be._ A small, sad smile touches his lips. __he chose it.

No, I don't miss you... Not in a way that one is missed.But I think of you. Sometimes.In the way that one might think of the summer sunshineOn a winter night...

While I'd been plagued by nightmares of Jonathan's unrest in the hereafter, it was only now that I'd seen Adair again__nd seen him so changed__hat I could admit, even to myself, that it was him I daydreamed of, who I longed for, who I ached for, physically. That was how I'd betrayed Luke__n my desire for Adair. It wasn't so uncommon, was it? Living with one man while your mind is on another? Being unable to stop thinking of this other man who, for one reason or another, was not the one sitting beside you. Thinking of the way his eyes lit up when he saw you, of his wicked smile and what it was like when he held you, how you responded to the touch of his hands. In solitary moments, you remembered the little intimacies, the feel of his skin against yours, the way he liked to be touched, the velvet nap of his member, the way he tasted. You thought of him even though you could never be with him. His absence nagged like an itch you could never scratch.

Please wait for me. Don't have all the fun now. Don't fill up on other people who aren't me. Don't ruin your appetite.

Our plans for the future made us laugh and feel close, but those same plans somehow made anything more than temporary between us seem impossible. It was the first time I__ ever had the feeling of missing someone I was still with.

Boys, at war, so far away, will naturally droop, both in body and mind, from lack of a particular girl__ snuggling and cuddling.

Aloneness and all-oneness is our authentic nature. We are always alone and all-one. We came into this planet alone and all-one. We will leave alone and all-one. And also during our whole staying in this world, no matter how we engage in relationships, we continue to be alone and all-one, though we may forget about it or pretend it is not the case.True love has nothing to do with the idea that someone is the other half of my soul and that I need him or her in order to be whole and feel complete. Only when we can be alone and all-one with someone there is true love, regardless of whether that someone is still with us or not.And yet... I miss you...

His eyes missed her as much as the rest of him.

Things you'd never even seen with Finn could remind you of him, because he was the one person you'd want to show. "Look at that," you'd want to say, because you knew he would find a way to think it was wonderful. To make you feel like the most observant person in the world for spotting it.

How do you love someone and just_ walk away? Just like that. You just, go on as normal_. You get up, get dressed, go to work_ How can you do that? How can you be okay with that?

I still think of you every day.But I__ trying not to let it hurt me with the same intensity that it used to.

There__ only ever been one person I__e looked at and thought__ could quite easily spend the entire rest of my life with that man_.And sooner or later I need to accept that he__ spending it with somebody else.

It__ just never going to get any easier is it. It__ never going away, this missing you. It__ going to become a sadness I incorporate into myself _ along with all the other sadnesses _ and quietly carry around with me forever_

Must I wonder if your thoughts are of me? If you are missing me, wanting me, creating heart beats and poet-less words for me? [ i do_]

It hurts that I was just one page in the book of your life_But what hurts more is knowing you__l revise that chapter someday_._.. and you__l erase me completely.

I try to do something positive _ I socialise more_But deep down I know the truth.An entire world of people can never replace the one that I__e lost.