i-miss-you

Though these words will never find you, I hope that you knew I was thinking of you today_.. and that I was wishing you every happiness.Love Always,The girl you loved once.

When you experience loss, people say you__l move through the 5 stages of grief_.Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance_.. What they don__ tell you is that you__l cycle through them all every day.

The last time I felt alive _ I was looking into your eyes.Breathing your air_. touching your skin_ Saying goodbye_.The last time I felt alive_. I was dying.

It__ painful, loving someone from afar.Watching them _ from the outside.The once familiar elements of their life reduced to nothing more than occasional mentions in conversations and faces changing in photographs_..They exist to you now as nothing more than living proof that something can still hurt you _ with no contact at all.

I miss that feeling of connection.Knowing he was out there somewhere thinking about me at the same time I was thinking about him.

If you cannot hold me in your arms, then hold my memory in high regard.And if I cannot be in your life, then at least let me live in your heart.

I had someone once who made every day mean something.And now_. I am lost_.And nothing means anything anymore.

There is an ocean of silence between us_ and I am drowning in it.

_the sad part is, that I will probably end up loving you without you for much longer than I loved you when I knew you.Some people might find that strange.But the truth of it is that the amount of love you feel for someone and the impact they have on you as a person, is in no way relative to the amount of time you have known them.

I meant skies all empty aching blue. I meant years. I meant all of them with you.

I__e missed you. I feel terrible when we__e apart. I__ so lonely, and I get so scared that you won__ think of me anymore someday, and I will be forgotten here. I only trust and believe in you. I live through you; and to be apart, I can__ stand this wretched feeling anymore.

Your memory feels like home to me.So whenever my mind wanders, it always finds it__ way back to you.