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Dear Camryn,I never wanted it to be this way. I wanted to tell you these things myself, but I was afraid. I was afraid that if I told you out loud that I loved you, that what we had together would die with me. The truth is that I knew in Kansas that you were the one. I__e loved you since that day when I first looked up into your eyes as you glared down at me from over the top of that bus seat. Maybe I didn__ know it then, but I knew something had happened to me in that moment and I could never let you go.I have never lived the way I lived during my short time with you. For the first time in my life, I__e felt whole, alive, free. You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins. I think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them. I__e known you for a short time, but I feel like I__e known you forever.I want you to know that even in death I__l always remember you. I__l always love you. I wish that things could__e turned out differently. I thought of you many nights on the road. I stared up at the ceiling in the motels and pictured what our life might be like together if I had lived. I even got all mushy and thought of you in a wedding dress and even with a mini me in your belly. You know, I always heard that sex is great when you__e pregnant. ;-)But I__ sorry that I had to leave you, Camryn. I__ so sorry_I wish the story of Orpheus and Eurydice was real because then you could come to the Underworld and sing me back into your life. I wouldn__ look back. I wouldn__ fuck it up like Orpheus did.I__ so sorry, baby_I want you to promise me that you__l stay strong and beautiful and sweet and caring. I want you to be happy and find someone who will love you as much as I did. I want you to get married and have babies and live your life. Just remember to always be yourself and don__ be afraid to speak your mind or to dream out loud.I hope you__l never forget me.One more thing: don__ feel bad for not telling me that you loved me. You didn__ need to say it. I knew all along that you did.Love Always,Andrew Parrish